2019 in a nutshell ♡

In 2019;

• I laughed a lot. I can’t quite remember at what because my brain retains sad memories for longer than happy ones; please God let that change this year! But I am sure there was some laughter.

• I was shocked at how quickly human relationships can break. They take a lifetime to build and collapse in a matter of seconds. I had to hold my own hand and walk myself out of the arms of people I once called home. And it hurt – still does.

• I made some good friends on here. Friendships are hard for me. I am not an easy person to be friends with; I moan a lot and I never wanna do anything besides eating and talking. But anyway, if we banter and I throw voice notes at you first thing in the morning; you da man, thanks for putting up with me and I love you. You are truly blessed to start the day with my voice. Or you know, maybe God is punishing you for something you did in the past which frankly is your beef not mine. Take it up with God.

• I struggled with getting closure and learnt that when you check an email account that you never use and discover an unread message from 2017 that you open for the first time in 2019; sometimes it’s best to just forget it was written. Even though all you want to do is message the person back and say; I didn’t ignore you two years ago, I just never got the message; it’s sometimes best to let sleeping dogs lie as the saying goes. And for the rest of you, let this be a lesson; the best place to reach me is not my gmail account, I never use it! Give me strength!!! Close your eyes Tam and breathe!! 🤦🏽‍♀️

• I ate and ate and ate. A lot. It was bad. But it was also so bloody good. Alhamdulilah. I’m a big girl and that just means there’s more of me to love innit. It is what it is and what it is is french toast lads.

•In the name of kindness, I wrote letters to strangers and left them little treats because life can suck ass sometimes and everyone needs a little pick me up now and then. Though please understand the treat bit varies on what my bank account is saying and its not always monetary because I am not Oprah Winfrey.

• I rescued these babies and their mum off of the streets;

… and 15 weeks later they were adopted into loving homes!! If you notice the markings on the little white kitten’s head you will see that it’s this little guy;

p.s. that is not my house, in case anyone was feeling stalky today.

• I read quotes that resonated with me, hard.

• Emotional, I showed them to my mum but the sentiment didn’t land and she said the protaganist who said them was a gobby cow who was blasphemous to be beefin’ God 🤦🏽‍♀️

• I went to some read: exactly ONE incredible shows; The Mousetrap! Eeks!

• God got me through some crappy times this year though I did not always deserve his mercy. Alhamdulilah. I also believe he put this Queen in my life for company and to get me through some tough ass times herself. And she does coz she’s my absolute day one…

Happy New Year ya’ll. It’s been real x


  1. That’s a beautiful french toast! I have not had a good french toast in a really loooong time. How was Mousetrap? My sister is obsessed with Agatha Christie and her mysteries and that’s all she ever talks about. Man, relationships are tough – it’s like an everyday struggle for me. Happy new year! May Allah (swt) give us the memory to remember the happy moments instead of the sad ones. We (including me foremostly) really have to work on it and practice that!

    1. Ameeeeeeen! You and me both. Sick of focusing on misery. Like SICK and tired of it big time. Mousetrap was really good! I loved it. I am an Agatha junkie too. I’m more obsessed with the author than the books. She’s so fascinating. Some really good documetaries out there on here absolutely fascinating stuff. And yeah good French Toast is so hard to come by but I finally found a good enough place #winning !

      1. Yeah, didn’t she go missing for a time or something? I only this vicariously. I gotta admit that Poirot TV series with David Suchet is/was really good. That opening theme!

      2. Yeah she did. Hence the fascination. There’s a hotel room in Istanbul that’s like a shrine to her. She used to write there. I bet its so expensive to book that room lol! There’s a movie on Netflix; a fictionalised account of what happened to her when she went missing. I liked it! Agatha and the Truth of Murder it’s called.

      3. LOL, yeah. My sister told me to visit when I went to Istanbul earlier this year. I really would have liked to. But with only two full days in Istanbul, it just was not possible. Hmm, I will have to ask my sister if she saw this movie. Too bad winter break is over now, otherwise I could have watched this! So many started shows/movies on Netflix that I have no plan to finish. LOL.

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