-I feel seriously gross inside right now. I am petrified for my grandma’s health and I am making up insane scenarios in my mind of all the carastrophes that can occur. Terrible I know. But silence, loneliness and this time of the night will do that to a person, you know?
-I don’t even know how work will go tomorrow given that my my mind is occupied with the latest update re my grandma. Evidently the chest pain she was experiencing may have been a minor heart attack which is terrifying to me. She’s sleeping in the hospital tonight for monitoring and further tests.
-I want so bad for everything to be okay again. I need something strong to knock the sadness right out of me. Now. But I find myself with nothing and no one. The ability to function has been temporarily halted for me.
I hate this.